Give a little; Get a little

We’ve all agreed; Sir is going to begin training her, as well.

She wants to meet him before they begin training. And he knows I’m uncomfortable with it, but he wants to get laid. And obviously I can’t do that for him from 700 miles away.

I have a friend nearby. Well, about 3.5 hours away. We’ve met irl a few times and have become really good friends. He’s the one person who knows me offline who I’ve talked to about the D/s stuff that’s happening in my life. And shockingly enough, he’s into it. He has experience. He and I have a nonsexual play date (Pirates marathon ftw!) scheduled for next weekend. Sir was considering letting us play so I could get some real bdsm experience, but changed his mind because he detected a bit of an emotional attachment on my part.

But in our conversation tonight, he decided to compromise. I can play with my friend – if he can play with her.

He keeps pointing out the hypocrisy behind me being upset with him playing with her when I’ve had a play date already and asked for another. And I do understand that. But I trust my feelings. I don’t trust his. Yet.

But I know I’m going to have to get used to it. We want to bring her into our house. And I’m okay with that. Honestly. I’m just jealous. Jealous that she gets to touch him first. That she gets to please him first. And a little fearful that he’ll get so used to her that he’ll prefer her over me.

But it’s a leap of faith. And I’ve told him that if this works out the way he sees it working out, it’ll go a long way towards building trust with me. So we’ll just have to see.


~ by M on February 7, 2010.

One Response to “Give a little; Get a little”

  1. I have no advice, no words of wisdom. All I wish is that whatever happens a positive lesson is learned.

    Best of luck!


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