Overcoming Shyness

I’m slowly overcoming my shyness with him. I spent the last two weekends with him, and at one point he got naked, laid on the bed with his arms behind his head, and commanded me to explore.

It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done! I know I had a full body blush going on.

But that made this weekend a little easier. I’m a little quicker to touch him without him asking (or telling) me to. The first few times I was with him, he would take my hand and put it on his cock. He doesn’t have to do that anymore. 🙂

I’ve still got a long ways to go. I’m not comfortable enough to be on top. I’ve been on top with him a few times, but usually he still does the work. I’m not comfortable enough to take control when I’m sitting on his cock. We tried to do the reverse cowgirl position the other night, and I was so flustered that I couldn’t guide his cock into me. I ended up giving up, but I felt like such a failure.

He was pretty quick to realize I was retreating into my shell as a result and he tried to comfort me and tell me it was okay and not a big deal. We found other ways to enjoy each other and everything was fine.

But I definitely still have some things to get over. I guess it’ll just take time!

~ by M on March 9, 2010.